Procrastination

For as long as I could remember I've always been a procratinator. In school and i'm sure other parts of life. I feel like with the wedding planning I've tried to plan everything as far in advance as possible. Whether out of excitement or fear or things not getting done. Many times i've been told that it's to soon to do certain things. And I've been reassured plenty of times that i'm on the right track. But with under not just 6 months but now 5 months. I feel myself starting to panic. yes october feels like a million year away. But 4 months! 4 months in wedding time is not the same time as in normal people time. I'm sure I am doing fine, but I worry more about what is going to happen when it's down to 2 months or 1month. I have had many nightmares of stuff not being done in time. Right now we have been procratinatin on the save the dates and invitations. We had thought about doing it outselves, but I am definantly having second thoughts right now. So I guess that is it. I can't picture that day actually getting here. Everyone says the engagment flies by and that the wedding day will be here before we know it. I do admit we've been engaged for 9 months now and it has flown by. But I still don't feel like that actual wedding day will ever get here. I can't picture myself actually getting married. Not because I don't want to. I'ts just so surreal, and I've been thinking about this moment my whole life. I can't believe its a mere few months away! So everyone just hope everything comes together! And that there is no major disaster or bridal meltdown!